Clealyan's Journal

Moving On..

Recently I don't know what has gotten into me perhaps one or two of u, friends out there might know and knocked some sense into me. But I don't seems to be listening, perhaps it's the character in me when i don't get something I want I won't let it go and thus make my life miserable for myself.

Have been meeting up with old sec school frens quite frequent recently. I still love those naive, happy go lucky days we've all spent together. Although we all know we can't return to those time but i guess once in a while meet up allow us to escape from the reality that hey, we've all grown up, n longer the 14 or 15 year old mummy's girl and mummy's boy.

Just an hour ago serene told me to read on someone's blog and I really feel that certain esperiences in life really help one person to change for a better. After reading the blog, thinking and reflecting on myself, i guess i could some how feel for how she feels.

Her thoughts have finally make me realise that giving so much only make yourself more miserable and allow the heartless ones to hurt u over n over again. Perhaps letting go might bring some hope of happines for yourself. Emily once said that i'm so stupid to get used by people. Yes, it's true that i'm stupid to think of doin it for someone u care is all worthwhile. Hello that's plain stupid wishful thinking. Writing all this at this point of time really makes my heartache but i guess i'm almost getting over soon. Looking optimistic towards life is my goal for life now. Thinking more of my family and looking for my ideal job, keeping myself busy meeting up old friends, making life more fruitful and meaningful.

Forgiving towards others brings you more joy and happiness for yourself. What's yours will always be yours. Learn to cherish the love people gave u! It's all right to lose yourself once in awhile as long as you know the way home finally.. :)


-shan:carefree-

posted by Cleaylan's Journal @ 4:26 pm