Clealyan's Journal

I'm a BAD girl..

I've been a bad girl for the pass few days.. this is sure i have to admit..

For the pass 1 week nothing productive has been done escept for casting n scripting..

Hang out with my cousins celebrsting my bro ORD and oso farewell for my younger cousin to be enlisted in army. Oh well.. It's a sinful day.. we had sushi.. ya sushi again rite.. less then 1 week i went sakae twice.. i swear i not touching jap food for the next 6 months.. had sushi for full 2 hours plus on wednesday.. was rather angry coz i have to wait for ppl..

Recently my patience has been running very very low.. is seriously low.. most of my frens has encounted and experience it... well something jus wrong somewhere..

nvm.. back to topic.. ya so after sushi we walk to Balcony n it was packed.. we went to cineleisure lounge but there's function on.. finally we walked to rouge,alleybar and peranakan house.. okie 5 idiot standing there dunno which one to choose.. No choice I have to walk up n decide.. althou i like the peranakan best but it's jus too dark.. rouge had live performance which damn noise althou there's cute guy singing.. so last choice alleybar.. had their house pour which was not up to my expectation.. yea i miss my 4:6 but they onli gave me 3:7.. argh.. ya after 1st cup we went on playing some stupid game.. "lets count the multiples of 7 and clap.."

initially i wasn't too keen to play so was punished to drink after tat my turn to make ppl hung by changin "let's do the multiples of 8".. thats gg.. everyone is wide awake to count.. we went almost to 1k.. thats freaking hard to keep up the beat.. lol.. ya we had the 5 vodka color shot.. i had almond which i feel is the nicest among all beside theres banana, raspberry, honeydew and vanilla.. ya suppose to be one shot down.. kuku my cousin drink sip by sip.. the color cups was fun man.. althoug we r drinking but somethin else or rather someone is racing thru my mine..

after which was thursday n i spend my day at home working on my script n still thinking.. yea den friday went to sch find no lect to consult.. fri night feelin something was not going rite wanting to call the someone but i didn..

sat morning went work but was dosing off.. heard something terrible which make me damn pissed that why i wasn't inform.. yea finally at night i noe the whole truth.. n i was there pissed off n angry with myself..

today went out with sy but was rather sorry to him coz i didn help him much as i didn slp the whole night.. brain not working.. but we encounter something really paranoid.. we are at mac workin on his story beat.. then there;s a weird man happen to sit behind him.. so as the time passes we felt more n more unsecured.. so left in a hurry once asto appear.. haha.. yea sy make me paranoid.. i was trembling afraid that the guy might do something dangerous.. coz was havin bad experince last night..

I'm rather slowly keepin more things to myself den share with my frens or family.. feelin very insecure recently n kinda lost myself somewhere which i'm trying very hard to search for myself back..

all i wan now was a warm hug from someone.. but i noe no matter how hard i try its no use.. well..


-If not of you, i won;t know what is love. If it's you I will say I'll never love again. I had no courage to say nor spoil what's at present-


-shan-

:'(

posted by Cleaylan's Journal @ 11:21 pm