Clealyan's Journal

Emotional

Haiz.. things around me as been going round n round non stop.. working freelance to have sufficient money for FYP althou my production is a simple one.. but that still requires money.. Jobs came lookin for me n tempt me to take on.. yea becaoz it;s yr end soon..

recently thinking i sound a lot like a consultant.. help ppl solving prob n giving advise.. but whose there to listen to me siah.. and who really understands wat i'm thinking..

sometimes i feel that ppl out there jus dun understand how fortunate they are to have someone loving them and caring for them.. pls who ever is reading pls look ard urself.. u don't wan to regret it..

i also dunno why recently my thinking is jus so weird.. have been pressing my own feelings a lot.. everytime when i feel better w/o thinking a particular thing or person.. the prob will slowly surface in front of me.. right smack in my face.. so much agony in there... i have to advice but could not put my own feelings in.. well.. jus feelin tired sometimes.. but still alrite.. i can still go on n i will..

i've fnal learnt how to let go n be grateful of wat i have n who i have with me.. be it friends, family, relatives or even colleagues.. Kinda feelin weird this few times when my mom pop to ask me if i'm seeing anyone.. haha.. well the ans is no.. jus becoz i start to make myself look better doesn't mean i'm seeing anyone.. so my ans to her is. NO.. n i'm not gonna see anyone.. haha.. she was pretty angry n say:" u wan to be left on shelf forever arh".. well.. if thats the case to be.. so be it.. i don't seems to be bother about this kind of thing anymore.. haha..

right now i'm leaving my FYP aside.. wait till the submission of learning contract the war shall begin.. no space to breathe.. lol..

so Mina-san.. gambatte kudasai..

-shanz-

posted by Cleaylan's Journal @ 6:19 pm